I have just realised I only have 6 weeks left of maternity leave and it has made me realise i feel I have totally wasted the time I have had off work!
I had all these plans to go to baby groups such as baby massage, swimming and music bugs and I have done nothing. We tried out baby massage and he didn’t seem that keen to be honest but the others i haven’t even given them a try.
I am determined to make these last 6 weeks count and to also make the 2 days I will have with him a week count! I have found a music bugs session and a swimming session that we can attend so I will be booking onto these and i just also want to get out for walks with him more and play with him more (this goes for my big 2 as well, after school and at weekends)
I am also so worried about going back to work and taking Oliver to nursery. When I went back to work after Freddie my mum had him for 2 days and Gareth for the other day so I had no worries and I also went back to doing the same job I left.
With Isla I had no choice but to put them both in nursery and again I went back to the same job but this time I just don’t want to go back.
This is the first time I have thought I want to be a stay at home mum but it just can’t happen due to our finances which I am so sad about. I have never felt like this before, i have looked forward to returning to work and having adult interaction.
I dont know if it’s the fact that Oliver may well be the last or that I am going back to a different job but over the last week I have felt more and more sad about him going to nursery while I’m at work 3 days a week but unfortunately for now it has to be done.
Im sorry for another post like this but I feel better getting my thought down on my blog!
Has anyone else felt like this about returning to work? How did you deal with it?
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